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Один из тех дней...

когда в конце изматывающих и не особо удачных (я бы даже сказала, - абсолютно провальных) долгих рабочих часов, ужасно хочется прийти домой, зная, что там кто-то ждет.

the balm for my soul

The silence isn't so bad till I look at my hands and feel sad. Because the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly. 
Owl City, Ocean Eyes

*Maine Mere Jaana (EMPTINESS) Lyrics - Female Version* 

Tu Aaja 
Tu Aaja 

Mujhko Meri Sazaa Toh Suna Jaa 
Woh Aahein Haan Woh Aansu... 
Mere Hisse Ke Mujhko Rula Jaa 

Sapne Tere Saare Jinme Main Rehti Thi 
Tukde Ban Ke Mere 
Zakhm Seene Me Kar Gaye Ho 

Maine Mere Jaana Kyun Nahi Jaana 
Ishq Tera, Dard Tera 
Maine Mere Jaana Kyun Nahi Jaana 

Ishq Tera, Dard Tera 
Akeli Akeli 
Reh Gayi Bin Tere Yun Akeli 
Main Tadpoo'n Ya Taarsoo'n 
Ya Chali Aau'n Main Paas Tere 
Itni Tanhai Hai Zindagi Kho Gayi 

Baatein Karne Saari Aa Rahi Hoon Tujhse Hi 
Maine Mere Jaana Ab Hai Jaana..... 
Ishq Tera Dard Tera Haaye 
Maine Mere Jaaana Ab Hai Jaana 
Ishq Tera Dard Tera 

Tu Jo Gaya...... 
Haal Ye Mera Rehta Hai 
Dil Ye Mera Aaa..Aaa.... 
Khud Se Hi Tanha Rehta Hai 

And I Feel Too Lonely Yeah... 
Thats A Better Place Than This 
Emptiness 

And I'm Too Lonely 
Thats A Better Place Than This 
Emptiness

Tere Bin Sanu Sohnia

Rabbi Shergill

Tere bin sanu sohnia koyee hor nahio labhna

 Jo dave ruh nu saku chukke jo nakhra meraa

 Ve mai sare ghumm key vekhia amrika, rus, malaysia

 Kittey vi koyee fark see, har kise dee koyee shart see

 Koyee mangda meraa see sama, koyee hunda surat te fida

 Koyee mangda meree see wafa, naa koyee mangda merian bala

 Tere bin hor naa kise, mangnee meria bala

 Tere bin hor naa kise, karnee dhup vich chhan

 Tere bin sanu sohnia, koyee hor nahio labhna

 Jo dave ruh nu sakun chukke jo nakhra meraa

 

 Jive rukia see tun jara, nahio bhulna mai saree umar

 Jive akhia see akhan chura, "rovenga sanu yad kar"

 Hasia see mai hasa ajib, (par) too nahee see hasia

 Dil vich teraa jo raj see, mainu too kyon nee dasia

 Tere bin sanu eh raj, kise hor nahion dasna

 Tere bin peerh da ilaj, kis vaid kolon labhna

 Tere bin sanu sohnia, koyee hor nahio labhna

 Jo dave ruh nu sakun chukke jo nakhra meraa

 

 Milia see ajj mainu teraa ik patra

 Likhia see jiste tun shayr varey shah da

 Park key see osnu hanjnu ik duliya

 Akhan' ch band see seh raj ajj khulia

 Kee tere bin eh mere hanjnu, kise hor nahio chumna

 Kee tere bin eh mere hanjhu, mittee vich rulnha

 Tere bin sanu sohnia, koyee hor nahio labhna

 Jo dave ruh nu sakun chukke jo nakhra meraa

Хочу у зеркала, где муть
И сон туманящий,
Я выпытать - куда Вам путь
И где пристанище.

Я вижу: мачта корабля,
И Вы - на палубе...
Вы - в дыме поезда... Поля
В вечерней жалобе -

Вечерние поля в росе,
Над ними - вороны...
- Благословляю Вас на все
Четыре стороны!

Марина, Цветаева, 3 мая 1915


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I’d like to ask the mirrored glass, -
All hazy, mystical, and foggy, -
To show where are you heading,
And where you’ll find a shelter.

I look and see: An old ship’s mast.
There, on the deck, you’re standing…
You, by the clouded train… The vast,
Green fields, at night, lamenting…

The evening countryside in dew,
There, ravens soar in flight…
--My dear one, I bless you
To go wherever you like!

Marina Tsvetaeva, May 3, 1915

My days go busy, And mostly i'm glad I don't have a moment to stop and think..
But when those idle moments come inbetween..
The feeling of being lost rises and overflows the edges of my existence

I don't know what I feel, and I don't know what should I feel.

And I'm searching in all songs and all poems
To find the words which could tell me 
what's this emptiness inside me which is not giving me peace..
There's no such song, and there's no such poem..

A new song by Zemfira and my translation
The Uchpochmack - Lightbulbs

Time to burn the bridges
Time to look for an answer
And change the burnt-out bulbs

Time to burn the bridges
Time to look for an answer
And change the burnt-out bulbs

A Long night,
Exhausting days,
And the apartment is smoked,
Too smoked
And the rain has set in since the morning
And there's a sigh left inside

And my heart will not survive,
Will not survive for sure

And i live in a delirium-like state of mind
I'm just trying to "be" (exist)
I'm a tiny human being
And I need to swim somewhere
I need some kind of a light
So I could see at least dreams


Time to burn the bridges
Time to look for an answer
And change the burnt-out bulbs

Time to burn the bridges
Time to look for an answer
And change the burnt-out bulbs


There are no ships,
Not a single soul around
And its so cold on the street
Scary and cold
And these shadows from the street lights
and the High-beam from vehicles

And my heart will not survive,
Will not survive for sure

And i live in a delirium-like state of mind
I'm just trying to "be" (exist)
I'm just a tiny human being
And I need to swim somewhere
I need some kind of a light
So I could see at least dreams


Time to burn the bridges
Time to look for an answer
And change the burnt-out bulbs

one month left only.. just four weeks to enjoy India to the fullest.. then - it's time to start my new life, in the new place..